Big night out...
Well, not really big night out, but it was a lot of fun. I went out to dinner with some friends - I've been trying to organise it for the last week, and we did actually figure it out. Nick, Lizzy, Tamsen, Eugene and me. As in 5th wheel kind of thing - well, not really, it wasn't actually that bad. It was really cool to see that they all got along :) I'm quite relieved, actually. I was expecting it to be a little awkward, but it wasn't. Which is good. I think we should probably do that again.
Maybe I should date more. *shrugs* I dunno... it's just that I'd really like to find a nice guy. I don't really want to go through a whole bunch of losers, though... and I don't want to date for the sheer heck of it. As silly as this seems, I think I'm going to need to find the One. I don't think I can handle dating the seventeen or so beforehand, it's going to have to be the One. Good luck to you, I hear you say. And I know, I know, I'm young, I have plenty of time to find the One and God does stuff in His own good time. But still... sometimes, I'd really like to find him. Whoever he is. The only thing I do know and hold on to is that he's going to be a pretty amazing guy, coz he's going to have to be absolutely right for me and that's going to make him a pretty unusual person.
I have a lot of ambitions. There are a lot of things I want to do with my life and I'd really, really like to not be doing them alone. Not that I don't think I couldn't - if I'm supposed to be doing stuff alone, then God will equip me, I know that. What it all boils down to is that if God intends me to be single, then he's going to make me okay with it. And if God has a guy somewhere for me, then I'll find that guy at the exact right time. It's all under control. I should really stop freaking out. But... *sighs* you know, sometimes it kind of sucks just being everyone's friend. I'm a romantic and I do want to live out some grand fantastic love story that doesn't involve sleeping pills, poison and balconies.
Then I think about the fact that my existence and my salvation is a part of the greatest love story ever told, and it all kind of pales in comparison. Earthly love is never going to be enough to satisfy me - but the eternal love of God is. What I want is what He intended love to be, his vision for humanity. I want someone who understands that. I want a guy who spends more time on his relationship with God than he does on his hair, to quote my friend Suzie. I want a guy who understands the love of God, because I don't think that he could fully appreciate love until he understands what God has done for him, for me, for everyone. There's a part of me that still doesn't fully understand what God's done for me, why he did it, what I've been rescued from. Can any of us really fully understand? It's pretty mindblowing... pretty crazy.
This is a situation I have to constantly give over to God. I keep trying to take it back, and worry about it but deep down I know that His timing is perfect. I also know that nothing will happen til I let go. It's hard to say that, but I know that it's what's best. I suppose I'd better get some sleep. I always get all deep and introspective when I'm tired. Good night!
ALP,
Rosie
Maybe I should date more. *shrugs* I dunno... it's just that I'd really like to find a nice guy. I don't really want to go through a whole bunch of losers, though... and I don't want to date for the sheer heck of it. As silly as this seems, I think I'm going to need to find the One. I don't think I can handle dating the seventeen or so beforehand, it's going to have to be the One. Good luck to you, I hear you say. And I know, I know, I'm young, I have plenty of time to find the One and God does stuff in His own good time. But still... sometimes, I'd really like to find him. Whoever he is. The only thing I do know and hold on to is that he's going to be a pretty amazing guy, coz he's going to have to be absolutely right for me and that's going to make him a pretty unusual person.
I have a lot of ambitions. There are a lot of things I want to do with my life and I'd really, really like to not be doing them alone. Not that I don't think I couldn't - if I'm supposed to be doing stuff alone, then God will equip me, I know that. What it all boils down to is that if God intends me to be single, then he's going to make me okay with it. And if God has a guy somewhere for me, then I'll find that guy at the exact right time. It's all under control. I should really stop freaking out. But... *sighs* you know, sometimes it kind of sucks just being everyone's friend. I'm a romantic and I do want to live out some grand fantastic love story that doesn't involve sleeping pills, poison and balconies.
Then I think about the fact that my existence and my salvation is a part of the greatest love story ever told, and it all kind of pales in comparison. Earthly love is never going to be enough to satisfy me - but the eternal love of God is. What I want is what He intended love to be, his vision for humanity. I want someone who understands that. I want a guy who spends more time on his relationship with God than he does on his hair, to quote my friend Suzie. I want a guy who understands the love of God, because I don't think that he could fully appreciate love until he understands what God has done for him, for me, for everyone. There's a part of me that still doesn't fully understand what God's done for me, why he did it, what I've been rescued from. Can any of us really fully understand? It's pretty mindblowing... pretty crazy.
This is a situation I have to constantly give over to God. I keep trying to take it back, and worry about it but deep down I know that His timing is perfect. I also know that nothing will happen til I let go. It's hard to say that, but I know that it's what's best. I suppose I'd better get some sleep. I always get all deep and introspective when I'm tired. Good night!
ALP,
Rosie
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